Leaving On Boeing 747-400

It's FINALLY happening! Yattaaaaa!

I got my work permit, visa and flight ticket already. I can't believe it. My hard work paid off, my dream is coming true and I can finally go. Finally.

It's actually overwhelming. I think the reality will only hit me when I'm physically there. Living, working and trying to lead a new life. It's really a new beginning and I really hope it's a good one. At the age of 30 years old and single... I am ready to conquer the men... eh, world I mean. *ehem*

Anyways, I had few farewell dinners and lunch and drinkies last week. It was nice and sad at the same time. I am leaving the comfort of home, the warmth and love of my family and friends. It's a huge deal actually, it's not all fun and I am actually anticipated that I might be lonely and missing home. I never actually living alone all by myself far away from home, family and friends. But hey, nothing is without sacrifice, right?

My girlfriends love me sooooooooooo much they bought me a new camera! My first actually and I am loving it VERY much. It's Canon Ixus 80 IS, in PINK! Thanks so much guys, I really really really love it. I'll keep you guys updated with all the nice pictures of... ME. Muahahahaha!

I also got myself new luggage bags :D no... I wished it was pink but it's not. It's RED. Hehe. Oh, I also bought a new Elle sling bag which Maw sponsored half. I think my girlfriends would slapped me to death if I ever said nobody loves me again, hahaha! OMG, I am so gonna miss my friendsssss! No more late night gossips, teh tarik and just hanging out at Starbucks bitching about passers by.

I'm going back to my hometown on Monday and spend the rest of the week there. I'll get my grandma to cook all the food that I loveeeeeeeeeeee! Geez, I'm gonna miss her so much too... and my mom... and my siblings. Oh well.

So people, this might be the last post until I my feet touch the Dutch soil. It has been 50 weeks since I was last there and yes, I can't wait to be back! It's sad but also great at the same time. :)

My flight would be on Sunday next week and I know I'm gonna be teary eyed like mad. I will arrive in Amsterdam with eyes bulging red like a bull frog, hahaha!

I took pictures of my packed luggages and my new sling bag and of course they were taken with my new hot pink camera. Pictures of the dinner will come later, the connection too sucky to upload them now. Oh, btw, my two huge luggage bags were packed by Rina and Irin (and Chote as side helper with Maw only giving instructions, hehe)If it were me, I might need 3 huge bags instead, haha. Until then. Ciao.

All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go...

Ik ga naar Nederland in de zomer!

UPDATES!

Time flies!

Work permit is approved but MVV is still pending. If I'm not gone by the 1st week of June 08, I'd be homeless and my bosses are so gonna be responsible for it. :)

I'm so busy now days. I'm learning a lot of new stuff at work and loving it! It's not really in my job scope but it's so interesting and I hope the bosses let me do it rather that hire someone with the specific experience, teehehe. I know I sounded so kiasu, lol. I can't help it because it's for sure will give my resume a boost and if I am thinking of staying in Holland (or in Europe for that matter) for years, this will SURELY helps! I am talking about a skill that is basically used by ALL industries currently and in the future! So at least, for my next job-hunting mission, I wouldn't be looking only at industry specific jobs. :) *kiasu mode*

I FINALLY finished selling off my furnitures. Every single piece of them. Nobody has taken it yet but starting next week, my stuffs will be gone one by one. Such a bittersweet departure! I spent a good fortune buying and then selling them off for dirts, haha! Oh well, as long as they are all sold, I'm fine with it. It was never a money making thing in the first place, more like try to get rid but not for free kind of thing.

I'm also selling my DVD (of course lanun) and books (and comics) collections too. I just keep some that I REALLY can't part with and sell the rest. It's such a heartbreak, I tell you! A generous chunk of my money are spent on books and DVDs (albeit lanun) unlike most girls who spent them on handbags and shoes, which I'm glad that I'm not because I don't think I can sell them off like I did now, especially not the shoes.

Aaaand... the best thing now is someone already bought ALL my books I put on sale, haha! I am so happy! Also because she's a reader and I know my books, my precious precious books will be in good hands :)

On the DVD collections, I already have buyers who are keen on getting the series collections. Also, if you are interested and residing in Klang Valley, Malaysia... and not a stalker and dogdy and creepy kind of person, please email me. To name a few, I have Six Feet Under, Smallville, Queer As Folk, Sex in The City, Charmed and so on.

PS: AND, if you are good looking and generous, we could go out for a laid... eh, I mean for a date.

The Night I Was a Pig No More!

My studio is SUPER DUPER clean, teehehe. I spent a lot of time cleaning up last night and slept at 3AM. Dusting, sweeping, mopping, arranging, throwing... I even wash the curtains! I was actually thinking of doing parts of it and continue again tonight but once I started I can't stop!!!

So now my studio is nice and comfy and inviting again. It had been a pigsty for a while... hehe. The reasons I did what I normally won't do under normal circumstances? Well, I have a few:

1. I am moving out so the cleaner the place the better, less work to do when they day comes.
2. I can't stand living in the pigsty anymore, seriously. Everyone has a limit and that was mine, althought mine is an equivalent to a pig, perhaps. Teehehe.
3. Potential tenant is coming to check out the studio and not the pigsty tomorrow night.
4. Since the potential tenant is coming, that person could also be my potential furniture buyer. If I am lucky enough, he or she would want to buy all my furnitures as well. The cleaner the studio, the better looking my furnitures would look.

So I really hope that person doesn't have furniture of his or her own and when he or she looked at how tastefully furnished my place is they'll fall for it :D

Cunning eh? Nope. I'd say that's smart!

PS: If this doesn't work, I will make a list with price and pictures of the things I want to sell off, which basically EVERYTHING!

I'm Adopted!

It's FRIDAY! Yippie!

I am going out tonight with my Dutch colleague. :) Before you start rolling your eyes and say, 'NOT AGAINNNNN!', let me just tell you this.

1. I will NOT, I repeat, WILL NOT get involve with another colleague. Maurits would be the first and the last office shag.
2. As for the colleague, he is not into ms pussycat if you get my drift. Since I do not posses the tool he fancies, it's the end of story.
3. Furthermore, his bf is here :)
4. I am officially their 'Adopted Asian Kid' lol.

So, tonight we're going dinner and then hit the clubs or bars. They are staying at a 2-bedroom condo in B. Bintang area, so I was offered to change and stay over for tonight if I want to (or have to in the case of totally wasted). Tell you the truth, I couldn't feel safer than this, hahaha!

Tomorrow I am going back to my hometown. Most probably EVERY weekend from now on until 'D' day. :) I've also decided to enjoy every bit of 'Malaysian' from now on. From the hot sun, heavy rain, flash flood, nice hot spicy dishes etc to the typical rudeness and inefficiency we encounter everyday!

Things are looking very good :) Happy, happy!

Have a great weekend people! Be safe and don't forget the rubbers!

PS: Silly boy, I'm not gonna be online from tonight till Sunday! You gonna miss me a lot, teehehe.

When a Moronic Ignorant Practising the Freedom of Speech

I actually refused to comment or write about it in my blog but I just have this feeling today, that I HAVE to. I MUST. Sigh. It's about the movie 'Fitna' by that Dutch guy, Geert Wilders. Sigh.

First of all, let me just clarify my position in this. I am Muslim, my religion is Islam. Although I am far from practising it and I've sinned... A LOT (well, according to my religion that is), there is no way in hell or heaven or earth that I'd denounce my faith. I might not be a practising Muslim but I still am one even if it's only by name.

OK.

I watched that 15 minutes movie, last night. It actually got me thinking. The truth is I wasn't especially angry about the content and the whole degrading of Islam stuff. An open clear minded person or Muslim for that matter would've seen how exaggerated the movie was. I am NOT saying it is OK to produce such movie because it is not. It is just wrong to exercise the freedom of speech and liberty without considering the repercussion.

I must also say the movie disturbed me in so many levels. It wasn't the Quran translations because you don't need to be a genius to know it's crap. Conclusions can't be made on a few sentences but assumptions could. You don't need very much to assume things.

But the preaching clips!!! Oh my, it disturbed me so much because living in this pretty liberal Muslim country, I am not, well never been exposed to religious leaders that sounded so... hateful. That spoke with such vengeance and hatred. I am not generalising but I am sure there are people that would. And that is really sad especially to the rest of the Muslims all around the world because the majority of us are peaceful people. Sigh. Maybe I didn't learn it well but I know enough that violence is bad. To be extremely fanatical about anything is bad too.

Geert Wilders and those preachers he showed in the movies are the same side of coins if you ask me. Both are preaching the same thing. Hate, vengeance and annihilation. It's a never ending story.

In my opinion, freedom of speech and liberty are great things but they would not be great any longer if you add moronic ignorance to it. Speak your mind, stand for what you think is right and be as liberal as you want but do it with awareness and a little bit of sensitivity if you must.

That's not really freedom of speech and liberty, you say? But that doesn't make you a moron either, does it?

PS: Btw, I am not changing my mind about going to Holland. Mind you, I COME IN PEACE!

Geek Mode Activated

I come back pretty late from work today. Later than my usual 7.30pm. It wasn't a super busy day but I was so immersed in my work I kinda lost track of time. But I am so proud of myself today because finally I understand the technical part of affiliate marketing and network. I've been wanting to do that for a while!

You see, the concept of affiliate marketing and network is very easy to understand. In fact to promote or sell your product or service online through the affiliate network is pretty easy. Find network(s), get connected, offer good commission rate and wait for the traffic to flood your way. Well, of course there are a lot of things to be done in between the steps like network assessment, some researching, some reading, some calculation etc. But that wasn't my biggest worry. My biggest worry was the technical implementation of it, things that make it work.

By right I shouldn't. Well, not if I'm just doing online marketing I wouldn't. If that's the case, I just need to worry about the marketing optimization.

But being the so called PM ala PITA (Pain in the Arse), I feel that it is essential that I know how it works technically. So that I could speak the same language with the geekies behind the server. So that I could kick some arses when it wasn't done correctly. I mean, of course there are half fluent Project Managers that only have surface level knowledge (I even know some) but I am just not one of them. My extra edge and selling points are always my technical understanding of things. I have enough technical knowledge to pin point what could possibly be wrong most of the times. I'm not even surprised if I happened to be on the programmer's hate list. Heh.

Ok ok fineeee. Being Ms-I-Must-Know-It-All makes me sleep well at night. *eyes rolling*

So today, being the true Ms-I-Must-Know-It-All, I was busy reading up about pixels, tracking codes, server to server integration, which network can do this, can't do that, which technical implementation should be used to optimize sales flow and everything in between. I am very satisfied with myself because now I have the answers to why it was like that and why it should be like this and not like that.

And after all that (surprise, surprise), I come to realize that I am better, always better at things technical rather than commercial things like marketing or business developement. I am much happier when managing the technical side rather than the commercial side of a project, which explains why I like what I do. I think I just love the complexity of it all because this is at least a complexity I know. Although now I also need to get involve in the commercial part of the project (deals negotiation, media planning, business case analysis... that sort of things). I don't hate it but I don't like it much either because I feel like I'm out of my league a little bit.

Ok ok fineeee. Me a geek. *eyes rolling*

I know, I know... I just need to put more effort. It adds value and expands my skills and knowledge. Of course I know that, duh. Hmmm... I also want to learn more about this online marketing thingy. I think it's pretty cool after finding out what the competitors are doing and how they're doing it. Maybe I should discuss this with my bosses, they are looking for an Online Marketing Manager and I think if I ask for the opportunity to try it, they'd let me. Most probably. As far as my experience goes working with the Europeans, they always give opportunities to those who seek for it. In fact, they kinda appreciate it. A lot. Worth a shot, me thinks.

Of course I will not give up being a geek *batting eyelashes*. I just can't because it's my 'forte', sort of my 'calling' LMFAO. Not saying I don't have enough on my plates, just that I think I should give it a shot. Would be nice for my resume too, hehe. If I do it well that definitely translated to more moolahs, muahahahahaha! *smug evil laugh*

If only I put this much effort into my social life. Then maybe my sexual life wouldn't be this... dry. Literally.

Aku gersang bak gurun sahara. Teehehe.

*Deactivate geek mode. Activate horny mode*

Spot The Black Blob Bekky

If you don't look carefully, you'll think Feefi is alone in the picture. Lol.

She is nothing more than a black blob.

That's the tiny socks she's wearing on her front paws. If you can see it at all!

I hope Bekky will grow bigger and fatter soon!

Deep In Thoughts

Feefi now has a friend. Teehehe. Yeah yeah I know I shouldn't cos now instead of one bunny to bring to Holland, I have two. Worse come to worst, I will only bring Feefi BUT I will try my hardest to bring both because I think Feefi will be depressed without her new friend. It is also very cruel to leave one. If one has to be left behind, I think it is better to leave both. Urgh. I guess we have to wait and see how cruel and selfish I'd be when the time comes.

I don't have the picture of the new friend but she is also a female bunny, black color with a bit of white at the lips and white front paws as if like she's wearing socks 3 sizes too small. She is also cute, bit longish fur with short flat snub. She looks exactly like Feefi just black in color and smaller in size. Feefi is now acting like the big sister :) snugglling close to her new friend and sleeping on top of her, just because she can I guess. I'll post their picture together next time.

I haven't decided on the name yet. I thought since she's black I want to call her Blacky, but then it sounds too 'manly' for a girl, so I think for now I will call he Bekky instead. Bekky has no toilet manner, she pooed and peed while she eats and it's everywhere. Feefi on the other hand already learned to pee in the litter box and occasional accidents where she pooed while she eats. I hope Bekky will learn from Feefi soon because it is so not cool sleeping in the ocean of poos. It is also not cool for me to be picking up the shit pills after them.

My days here are numbered. The excitement I thought I'd be feeling for long is wearing off. In fact, reality started to kick in and dawned upon me. Nope, I am not getting cold feet, really.

Just that...
The thought of settling A LOT of crap is tiring and troublesome.
The thought of leaving my mom and grandma behind is breaking my heart... slowly.
But I guess that's the price I've to pay for a dream come true.

Sigh. Oh well. Who said life is easy? Not.

I'm a Dreamer and Feefi is Fatter

Feefi grew a bit I think, she's like a piggie, she eats all the time! Check out the pics I took, she finally moved in the bigger cage! See how cute she is, sleeping like a freaking cat! I'm teaching her toilet manners, it's still a loooooooooooong way to go! But I am very sure she'll get there!

I have this HUGE news I wanna share but I don't know if I should yet. Maybe in 2 weeks time I would. Some might have guessed it lol. But let's wait and see :)

But people, dreams do come true. Well, as long as it is realistic enough haha. I dreamt of shagging Brad Pitt when I was younger, now that I am older and wiser *ehem* I know better. I guess I can keep on dreaming that... in my sleep! *blush*

Ik ben Feefi. Ik ben een mooi meisje!

Say hello to Feefi the baby bunny. She'll be going to Holland with me (I really hope so)... IF I'm going in summer that is. I haven't heard anything from my boss yet regarding my visa and work permit application, I was told that he should be getting some updates on the residence visa next week and another 6 weeks after that on my work permit. I'm feeling a little bit nervous to be honest.

Oh well.

Anyway, Feefi is 2 months old (I think). She is a mixed breed rabbit, my guess would be a cross between Netherlands Dwarf + Anggora because she has this short ears and very fluffy longish soft hair. She also has this short snub ala the Netherlands Dwarf. I don't really care because she has the sweetest temperament a rabbit could have!

Check her out. Ain't she super cute?

Btw, my sister (more like me mom) will be taking care of the hammies when I'm gone and my piggies for adoption. I can't be bringing all of 'em to Holland, can I? I wouldn't be able to afford it anyway.

It's All About.... Me, ME, me, ME, me, mE!!!

Guess what? I woke up early today and since today is a Saturday, that's an achievement. I think my body clock is back to normal, well... after 3 weeks of hard work, it should (lol).

Yes, I'm back working my arse off :) Tired, busy, hectic but feeling useful nonetheless. Apart from working, I'm also busy with Adita and her new baby. They got back here 3 weeks ago and I tried to spend as much time as I could... knowing full well that I might be seeing baby Haidan again in 1 year time... well, maybe earlier if my work permit to Holland is coming through that is.

Talk about Haidan. He's a very cute baby. Handsome... very fair and just sooooo cute! Me, Adita and Vasantha also spent a weekend at The Westin last week. It was fun, we ate the nicest pasta ever at Prego then sang our heart out, like some superstar at the karaoke bar. Vas got drunk like nobody's business again but it was all good. There are things that you can buy... but spending time with those who stood by you through thick and thin? Priceless.

Oh, Adita got me a nice birthday present! A Ginger Spice baby tee! Me loveeeeeeeeee so much! Maybe not a lot of ppl know that I am a big... HUGE fan of the Spice Girls. Well, me and Adita used to sing and dance to their songs back in our Uni days. They might not be super talented... but hey, the idea of Spice Girls and girl power are just my thang ok? I mean, apart from Spice Girls, there is no all girls band that promote girl power? Most that you can see nowdays are the ones oozing with extra sexuality power that makes the boys drool, haha. Or those who actually likes to steal someone else's bf by singing... don't cha wish your gf is hot like me? LOL.

Hmm.. ah I also started to use SKII. It's been 1 week I think... I could see some improvement to my skin texture and tone. I think it's working alright... I'm going to do the facial too. Now that I am 30, I just need to take extra care of everything. I seriously don't fancy looking my age... especially if I want to date younger boys, LMFAO.

I also rebonded my hair :D Now it is super straight and shiny :D I feel great, fabulous and beautiful. LOL. The puke bag is on top shelf, on the right. Please help yourself, hahaha!

Oh well, whateverrrrr! There are only 2 types of people in this world. Those who love me... and those who envy me. Which one are you? :)

P/S: Noi definitely loves me. She bought me this fabulous baby tee when she was holidaying in Australia last week! The baby tee said: Miss Celebrity. Awhhh...

Super Phones I Wanna!

I am eyeing these two phones. Supposedly launch in Q3 2008. Both are very interesting. For Sony Ericsson Xperia X1, this would be Sony's 1st Microsoft Mobile phone. For Nokia N96, not much upgrade from my stolen Nokia N95 8GB, except that now instead of 8GB, it is onboard 16GB and expendable up to another 16GB with memory card! Sweet. I really want both but that would be just stupid, unless I met someone really nice and would be happy to buy me a super phone... again (this is highly unlikely, I kept thinking that M is one of a kind, hehe).

Oh well, I don't really have time to update now. Maybe I'll write more over the weekend. For now, please check out the super phones! Sigh. They are such a turn on!

SONY ERICSSON XPERIA X1


NOKIA N96


Pictures taken from: GSM ARENA

Me Updates!

Me likey my new job. Me so busy.
Me boss already received the documents me sent. Now me waiting for the approval of the work permit and visa. Tick tock tick tock. Nervous wreck :-S
Me hate the bad traffic to work.
Me love Adita's baby! So handsome boy. So fair. So cuteeeeeeeeeeee! Me will post pictures when me got 'em.
Adita already booked my daughter if me marry a mat salleh. LMFAO.
Me so tired nowdays. Me brain is waking up from the dead.
Lastly but not me least...

Me bought a new watch. Casio Sheen. Me likeeeeee.
One sloppy kiss if you can guess which one me bought. :D

Ok me go now. Me so busy.

Picture from: Casio Sheen

I'm Back!

I know I haven't been updating for ages. :) Absence makes the heart grows fonder, isn't it? Teehehe. Anyway, here are the quick updates, I wish I could write more but I am not really in the mood.

1. I am fcking jerk. I TOTALLY forgot Noi's birthday!! Didn't even wish her. I called her on her birthday to ask the whereabout of the Dutch Embassy but I didn't fcking wish her Happy Birthday. Bad bad bad friend. Geez. I am so ashamed now. I'm SO SO SO sorry Noi :( Happy belated birthday. Please spank me titties for being a ninnies. Dinner on me!

2. I had my teeth pulled out and my gum stiched. I only have 1 wisdom tooth left and it will be gone next month too. I had enough of being in pain just because one useless tooth wants to come out from my gum. Hasta la vista, tooth!

3. I've been running around to prepare the documents needed for my work permit and residence visa in Holland. TIRED & EXPENSIVE. Looks like I have an expenses claim before I even start working, haha!

4. I will send the documents to my boss in Holland on Monday so that he can start the application procedure. The first step is done and now is the waiting game. Excited and worried at the same time. Will they approve my permit? *sweating*

5. I got meself a present! A brand new rose pink PSP! I have A LOT of games and already have music and movies in my sweet gadget! Happy happy happy! Now all my gadgets are pink! Teehehe.

6. I missed that silly Hungarian boy but then I changed my mind. *evil*

7. Suddenly I missed M but then I changed my mind too!!! *evil*

8. Monday is my first day at the new job. I hope I can wake up on time :p but I am excited alright! Fully charged and ready to go. Ketepi ketepi, Faiez is back!

That's all for now folks. I'll see you when I see you!

K-Nad Too Sexy Experience

Comel sangat budak ni.

* Tudung = Scarf